But there wasn't a whole lot we could do about being sad about it, so we just said, "Bummer," and went on with all the other fun things we have to do. Except that we've been playing Haruka 4 for so long now, we decided it was time for a change of scenery, and we couldn't decide what we wanted to do. We're really bad when it comes to that kind of thing, because when we have so many possibilities it's really hard to give up all of them in favor of one. We eventually managed to decide on Gundam Seed Destiny, which we only recently started buying on DVD, but hadn't actually started watching yet. But that reminded us that we haven't seen the Gundam Seed movies, and we think we're missing something, so we need to. And so we spent this morning shopping online and supporting the anime industry! Yay!
Only we ended up not actually buying the Gundam Seed movies, because they didn't have all three of them at Rightstuf. We found out we can get the set of them at Dot Anime, which we will (eventually), but part of our master plan was to get Chrono Crusade, because it's on sale at Rightstuf this week, and we didn't want to miss it (again). Unfortunately, it was two dollars less than what you need to order to get free shipping. It would have been fine if we could have just ordered the Gundam Seed movies. But when we went to Dot Anime to see what was going on with them, we discovered that Gurren Lagann part 2 comes out on Tuesday and we almost missed it! So we were able to order that and Code Geass, and get free shipping but spend a lot more money than we were planning to anyway. But we consoled ourselves in that we are supporting the industry.
We also made another order to CD Japan, because we found out they have the Sekai be Ichiban Daikirai (aka I Hate You More Than Anyone) drama CDs, and we decided we need them. Like, Need. Neeeeeeeeeeeeed. I'm not entirely sure why, but I'm pretty sure it has a lot to do with, hello, it's Maki Sugimoto. Talking! Out loud and not just in our imaginations! And then Akira Ishida♥ plays grown-up Ichihisa, and we have no idea who plays Mizushima so we have to find out (grown-up Ichihisa can't be in it too much, so...?)... so we decided we needed it. But we couldn't add it to the order we made last night because we paid with Paypal and they don't let you do it that way. So we paid another twenty bucks for shipping... or would have except we had points so we got it down to ten.
Aaaand today I'm just rambling a lot. We ended up being a lot more impatient to get our orders than normal (I know we only just ordered everything and it's Saturday, but we want it NOW, dangit!), and we finally figured out why but it's pretty angsty.
Celeste came over this afternoon. She had called a few times this week because apparently the new car registration stickers she needs by Monday are set to arrive at our apartment. So when she called this morning, I told her we didn't have them yet, because we didn't. She asked if she could come by for a minute anyway, and that set us off on all sorts of crazy theories as to why that would be. Is she coming to search through our mail because she doesn't believe us? Is she coming to ask if she can move in because her one roommate is moving out and she can't afford the rent? In all our self-centered paranoia (not all paranoia; we did wonder if she maybe had a present for us), we failed to consider the one most obvious reason she would take the trouble and spend the gas money to drive to our apartment for one minute when I told her we didn't have her stickers: She wanted to show us the rock on her finger.
Neither of us was quite sure how we felt about this. Partly, we were feeling insecure because she didn't tell us she was bringing her boyfriend over and we weren't dressed and hadn't tidied up the living room at all. And we both know that the general type of reaction that people like to get is excitement, but for some reason it wasn't happening. Athena didn't even notice the ring before she noticed Celeste's fingernails (it was kind of funny; she looked at Celeste's hand and was like, "Those are lon... oh!"). So we congratulated her and she could see that we weren't ready to have people stay over (she said she wasn't planning on staying long anyway), so she left. And we still couldn't figure out how we felt about the situation. I mean, we're both mostly with happy the way things are now, and right now we're still just getting over our fear of people enough to make regular friends--boyfriends are just... yeah. There are other complications with that idea, too; see Ouran High School Host Club for details.
And yet for some reason we couldn't really suppress the urge to cry. Thinking about how we didn't get to go to Disney Daze didn't help either. And then Mom called (her meeting ended early) because she loaned Athena her new watch to see if Athena could take a couple of links out of the wristband, and she wanted to get it back. This time, since we figured she'd be with at least Steve (her seminary co-teacher), we made sure to get dressed and do some tidying up. But she only stopped by just long enough to get her watch, and after she left we realized what the problem was: We're lonely.
But we're full of contradictions. Much as we want friends, we're still pretty scared of people, and besides, we don't have time to hang out with people! We have video games to play, and manga to read! And nobody around here would be interested in doing that with us.
And so we want Maki to come and make it all better. But in the meantime, we just come and ramble on Live Journal, because sometimes, all you need to do is talk. Not about anything in particular. Just talk.
Today I'm thankful for getting to sleep in today, all the shiny CDs that will eventually be on their way here, finding out that Gurren Lagann's coming out so we could order it (we still haven't had time to watch part one!), having time to read manga today, and the fact that we have ice cream in our freezer (it's good for the soul).