May 18th, 2008


Japan angst

Today I'm feeling kind of reluctant to talk about Japan for some reason. I think it has something to do with people at church asking how our trip was, which normally wouldn't be a problem, but they talk about it like it was a bigger thing than it was. I mean, for us it really was huge, but we didn't achieve enlightenment or anything; it was just a tourist trip to Japan. And there wasn't anything like, "Wow, Japan is so different than anything I've ever seen!" because one, we translate manga for a living so we have kind of an idea of what things are like there, and two, it actually felt a lot like LA. Also, I feel a little guilty about not being able to say, "And I can't wait to go back!" I mean, we do want to go back, but there was much comfort zone leaving, and we're not really anxious to do that again soon. So yeah. I just wanted to get that off my chest.

And man, the bishop's like, "Maybe we'll have you do a fireside!" And I'm like, "It was just a tourist trip!" I think I'm just afraid of letting people down. We really did have a good time, but we were really stressed out a lot of the time, too. I finally came up with a good analogy for it last night. It takes a lot of seishinryoku (mental/emotional energy) to go out of our comfort zones. We'll call it SP. It's a lot like MP in RPGs, only when you run out, not only can you not do any cool spells or techniques, but you want to curl up in a ball and spend the rest of your life in hiding.

Going to Japan to begin with took an enormous amount of SP, so we were pretty low from the start. Then our flight got canceled, which didn't help. And we didn't have much with which to replenish our SP, so it stayed pretty low the whole time, which is why we didn't have the SP necessary to do more exploring or try more new foods and stuff. Maybe next time we should make sure to arrive on Friday or Saturday, so we can go to church first or almost first, because that really helped. Disneyland would have helped, except for the lack of eating wearing us out. We are so lame. But as we keep going, we gain experience and raise our levels, and then we have higher max SP, and eventually we overcome the lameness. But for now, we're just going to think about AX. Dang it, how are we going to get any new costumes done!? Aaaaaahhhh!

The next part of the report will cover our trip to Akihabara, but I think I will start on that tomorrow.

Today I'm thankful for people showing interest in what's going on with us even if it does kind of freak us out sometimes, Sarah remembering our plans to see Indiana Jones on Thursday (hopefully it will all work out), good talks in church, sparkly card stock, and the word "sparkly."