August 12th, 2005


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I woke up today with "bitter fruits" in my head. Just the title says that that is not a good sign. I really need to stop being bitter, but there's this evil little voice in my head that keeps saying that if I stay bitter, maybe someone will notice and things will change. That voice is a big liar, although as of volume 15 of Fruits Basket, Tohru's lack of bitterness doesn't seem to be helping her much either. Still, probably the best way for things to get better is for me to just not see them as being so bad, because they're not really... at least they're probably not.

That's part of why I tried that gratitude journal thing last week, which obviously I've not kept up. The reason for that is, despite my love of Yuu Watase serieses and other such sap, there are some forms of sentimentality that kind of make my skin crawl, and saying "I'm thankful for..." and the like over and over is one of them. I'm really not sure why. So maybe if I change the wording to things like, "I'm happy that..." because I say stuff like that all the time. So let's try this again.

I'm happy that we get to eat Fruit Loops today, because we bought milk yesterday.

I'm happy that Haley Joel Osment became an actor.

I'm happy that we get to watch EyeShield21 and Ueki no Housoku.

I'm happy that such a game as Final Fantasy IX exists.

I'm happy that Soichiro Hoshi likes singing; it almost makes up for Akira Ishida's lack of singing.

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Today we saw a really good episode of the Cosby Show. They made it look like it was Theo learning about how life's much easier if you tell the truth in the first place, but I think the real message is in the exchange between Cockroach and Dr. Huxtable at the end. See, Theo had just been on trial, and Cockroach was his lawyer, and Mrs. Huxtable proved that the two of them had been lying about an incident that happened the previous day.

Cockroach thought the whole thing was great, because he thinks it's so fun that the Huxtables do things like have trials to teach their children lessons. But after the trial, after Theo had learned his lesson and promised not to lie anymore, Cockroach goes to Dr. Huxtable and says something about how it was really fun, but he hopes what happened in this house would stay in this house, because he didn't want his parents to find out what happened. Dr. Huxtable says, "Did you understand anything about what Mrs. Huxtable was trying to say?" And Cockroach answers, "About what?" "I thought so," Dr. Huxtable says.

Even the writers of the Cosby Show realized that all these people who watched the show and loved it so much weren't always taking anything away from it. I just hope I can be more like Theo.