Alethea & Athena (double_dear) wrote,
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Beware of angst

I am currently sharing a chair with Mimsy. She doesn't seem to like sharing much, which is why the first time I tried it she left right away. But this time, and the time before that, she was more stubborn. It's hard, because the only reason we're sharing is that she got to the chair first, which means she has the back, and I have nothing to lean against. But she got sick of it as I was typing this paragraph, so it's all good now.


Celeste being here is still weird. We've had her here before, but I think it's weirder this time, probably because she's actually going out and seeing people. It's weird having a popular sister. It's never been weird before, because she was always at a different school, and with a different circle of people, but now we're in the same place, in the same ward. And it's just weird that we were here first, and she's the one being invited places. And I know, we didn't go to the lake yesterday when we were invited, but it's not like we turn down every invitation we get. (We go to Family Home Evening every week, and a couple of times we went to some things that people in the ward were doing afterward. And I'm pretty sure we were cheerful and friendly in both those instances.)

It's especially weird because now that we see that Celeste has friends, we start to feel like maybe we're doing something wrong, and now I have to explain myself. In Young Women's, we were constantly told the story of the two young couples who moved into a new ward, and they both asked the same guy what the ward was like, and he asked both of them what their old ward was like. The one couple said, "Oh, it wasn't very good, we didn't have many friends, no one was very sociable, etc. etc." and the other couple said, "Oh, it was the best! Everyone was so nice, we had so many friends, etc. etc." And he told both couples that that's what the ward they'd just moved into is like.

So we don't know what our problem is. I don't think our ward is bad. Usually the worst that comes of us being by ourselves most of the time is a little cabin fever; it's just a problem now that Celeste is here (or rather, not here) reminding us what we're missing. Or worse, reminding us of the possibility that people, for whatever reasons, just don't like us. But it's not like we want to do whatever it is Celeste is out doing, and we actually prefer to be in our own home, so maybe I should stop complaining.


Sorry about the angst post; it's just the main thing that's been on my mind. But soon we'll be playing Kingdom Hearts II and everything will be happy, at least after we get through Port Royal. Today I'm thankful for Just Legal being back on the WB tonight, not having to drive four hours yesterday, having the good fortune of catching the commercials for the TV shows we want to see in time for us to remember when they'll start airing (like "Who wants to be a Superhero?"), getting to see Danny Phantom: The Ultimate Enemy again on Wednesday, and getting to play Kingdom Hearts II today.

Oh! I almost forgot! Happy birthday Raoul!!!!
Tags: angst, roommate stuff
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